..The JayuZ..

Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can’t be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

gw tersesat…gw keilangan arah bwt hidup…so what i’m supposed to do next? sial!

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Loving you (Loving you) is a like a song I replay (Baby, is so beautiful)
Every three minutes and thirty seconds of every day (Uh)
And every chorus (Uh) was written for us to recite (Right)

Waduh orang datang dan pergi, apalagi di idup gw yang sekarang..there are so many girls that come and leave..hohohoho yasudah..apa mau dikata sih

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3 kata itu yang jadi trademark masa-masa gw egosentrik dulu, huhuhuhu nampak ironis sekali dulu gw egois dan sekarnag mencoba menjadi seseorang yang sosialis..anyway..i keep talking to myself ‘You deserve more than this, so why d’ya wanted less?’
what fvckin long weekend…tidak ramay ey…

–just a thought–
Living in my world now, is pretty cold
no one waiting for me at home anymore
no one call my cell while i’m having fun with my crew
no one sending me an sms anymore…
no more 40 miss called at my cell
damn i miss that moment…
I’m pretty freezing and lonely…hohohoho
still i keep talking to myself : ‘Hey why dun ya just enjoy this life anyway?’
and that’s the moment i shouted : ‘nope, all i wanted is just her’
at that time i knew i am dead already…

-JyZ-:Tuhan…tolong hentikan semua rasa ini…

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Damn, seharian ini cuman tiduran di kamar..nonton Prison Break season 1, menghabiskan quota speedy dengan browsing, dan yang terpenting adalah bermain
mad caps!! nah yang terakhir ini lagi common banget diantara anak-anak titan, game yang cukup menarik bwt ngabisin waktu *ato juga nungguin server excaliburRO yang sering down hehehe* eniwei, baru aja tadi around 5 minutes ago i finally made my top score..16.932.500 damn good eh? eniwei tadi hasil browsing ada kata-kata menarik dari salah satu pengguna frendster which is:"if u love something, set it free.. if it returns, it’s yours forever. if it doesn’t, it wasn’t yours to begin with"
those damn fvckin good words are told me once more that i should move on wit’ my life, it’s either i will get her back or not is God’s will..hahaha ya sudah lah…there are bunch of movies i have to watch…i’m outta here

-JyZ- : Steep Hill is No Longer Threat for me

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waduh..pagi yang aneh, baru aja nyalain komputer *baca: monitornya doang* terus temennya nyokap mo ngomong ama gw, dia nanyain tentang dunia per-game online-an *which i’m expert in* dan gw ceritain aja waktu jaman-jaman gw sesat dalam dunia per-game online-an, lucu juga sih gimana gw bisa sangat addict ama game online waktu dulu *bahkan pas jaman CS* FYI: i’ve been broken up my two girlfriends because of gaming, waktu itu gw mikir cewe mah bisa nyari lagi, tapi kalo maen game mah musti sekarang *dan sekarang gw pikir kata-kata itu bodoh* anyway Gaming World udah ngambil 3/4 kehidupan jaman SMA gw, 1/2 Kehidupan kuliah gw…sebenernya kalo gw inget-inget gimana rame-ramenya maen game ama anak-anak dulu gw ga nyesel sih, tapi kalo gw inget gw udah kehilangan masa remaja gw..ada sedikit perasaan nyesel juga sih, tapi ya sudah lah..everybody has their own choice, and i had decided mine
oot: Hidup sekarang udah jauh lebih baik daripada 2~3 minggu kmaren, sekarang at least ada semangat bwt hidup, ada semangat supaya gw ga quit..  :)  like old man said: Life’s Bitch, But Still…It’s Beautiful

-JayuZ-

ps: blog gw sepi comment gini….*sigh*

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*nampak judul lagu* hehehe
eniwei akhirnya gw bisa *sedikit* terlepas dari kehidupan lany..it’s been a week since i last called her, tapi kadang masih sedikit keingetan sih *scara bulan ini cowo nya wisuda, and she will officialy meet his parents* well okay…ga apa-apa, i could just spend my day doing activity that i like…sudahlah….
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-JyZ-

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Me: Nothing’s gone the way i planned it
Myself: "But isn’t that just…well, life? everything doesnt have to be perfect"
Me: hmm…
Myself: "i mean, what we planned, what we wanted doesnt always match with God’s want"
Me: i could do some works..

Myself: "I think that’s what this week’s about, not regretting our pasts"
              "but appreciating everything that we’ve got now –"
              "great friends, great memories."
Me: …

-TryingToStandUpOnceAgain-

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When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you are trudging seems all up hill
When the funds are low and the depths are high
And you want to smile but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you might but you never quit

Life is erratic with its twists and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
When you might have won had he stuck it out;
Don’t give up, though the pace seems slow
You might succeed with another blow
Often the struggler has given up
When she learned too late, when the night slipped down
How close she was to the golden crown

Success is a failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubts
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be nearer when it seems a far
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit
It’s when things seem worse than you mustn’t quit.

"Unknown"

somehow i think i’m quitting right now…

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LIfe goes on…, kalimat itu yang terus gw denger hari kmaren dari temen-temen gw, "kalo lo tetep hidup di masa lalu lo, dunia ga akan repot-repot untuk ngeberentiin waktu..dunia bakalan tetep jalan while you’re stuck in one point". Bwat gw kata-kata itu mah kedengerannya gampang, tapi bwat prakteknya susah edan banget, gw sendiri tipe orang yang selalu hidup dalam masa lalu, semua orang selalu bilang i have to move on..so help me would ya?

-FvckinDumbAss-

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lately i’m turning into a melancholie person, dan akhirnya setelah mengumpulkan rasa kekecewaan gw, akhirnya a single tear came out right front my eyes..and u kno what? while i was crying..rasa itu keluar semua..dan kalo bisa mah gw ga bakalan berenti nangis…rasanya adeeem banget. Dari kejadian itu, gw bisa menyimpulkan kenapa wanita lebih seneng nangis daripada cowo, gw pikir sih pekerjaan menangis itu sendiri bisa gw kategorikan addictive, once you’re crying you can’t stop it; coba kita perhatiin lagi, dari kecil anak-anak cowo dibilangin ama nyokap nya supaya ga nangis, maksut gw dari kecil anak-anak cowo udah dididik supaya ga usah sering2 memakai kelenjar air matanya untuk menumpahkan perasaannya, tapi lebih sering supaya memakai kekerasan, kecowo-an buat numpahin perasaannya..while in the other hand anak-anak cewe di legalkan untuk menggunakan kelenjar air matanya once they’re got upset, that’s why wanita-wanita lebih banyak yang peka hatinya daripada cowo..well just my guest. Anyway i cried today because i feel i cant forgive myself for what i done in past but..i’m still  hoping lany still luv me.

-I’mJustStupidDumbAss-

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